I'm lucky, I do not have a disease that is slowly eating me away. I do not suffer from a physical ailment that causes me constant crippling pain. I do not have a death sentence that I can watch getting closer. I have Anxiety and Depression. Consumer diseases, Lazy men diseases, things that when I say I have them people scoff and tell me to get over it.
I can't, I didn't choose this, this is hard wired into me. I cry randomly, Fight or Flight flick on at every human interaction. Days of building my courage go into asking anyone to do a photoshoot, hang out, just talk. Rejection is my enemy, it terrifies me and I avoid any and all causes to cause confrontation or Rejection.